Is that dissapointment I am feeling?!?

Recently, I asked a friend of mine if she wanted to team up with me and audition to sing the National Anthem for one of our minor league baseball games.   It had been a very long time since I had to audition for anything and I was pretty nervous but she said yes and so we went! While we were singing, I had an incredible case of stage fright but we got through it and did an awesome job.  We had such a great time and also came to the conclusion that the reason we were nervous was because we were actually performing.  We sing in front of people on a weekly basis but that is far different.  When we sing at churches or for different ministries around town, we are not actually performing.  We are lifting up the name of The Lord and singing to Him.  He is our only audience.  He is the one who deserves all glory.  He is the one who gave us the talent in the first place!  It was a really humbling reminder that we sometimes get caught up in what we are doing and sometimes end up with our intent a little "off".  We did not make the cut this time and I must say that the feeling I had felt really bad!  I wanted to be the one to sing.  I wanted the opportunity for my family to come and hear what I have been doing lately.  Some of the ministries I am singing with are not safe or suitable for children to attend...I sing at a church that is held underneath our freeway bridge as well as for Celebrate Recovery.  The lesson here (I think) is that there are just too many "I's" here.  It is not about me.  It is not for this world that I should be singing.  The only one who matters here is our Savior!  To God be the glory!  The experience did give us a new found appreciation for what secular singers and songwriters must go through! :)

So that brings me to my new endeavor!  I need to practice the guitar.  I piddle around with it but have no real skills...yet.  I will be needing to play a lot better since I keep saying "Yes, Lord!  Send me!"  That's good though.  We should step out of our comfort zones occasionally for Him.  He will always guide us and protect us when we are glorifying Him.  He has given me two such reasons and though I am terrified, I know that with a little hard work and a whole lot of prayer, success will come and it will be awesome! 

I can't wait to see what He has in store for me...and those who I will be bringing the Gospel to, through music!